I feel like Heels.

How do you feel to be scrutinised by a set of beady eyes?
It is funny how some people think they are concealing their true feelings whilst judging.
You do realise its written all over your face right?
Heh. Sorry you can't poker it.

There is no one in particular I'm pointing at. Honest. I'm going with: I'm just sayingg..

To be honest with you, I do not understand why people like to pick on the obvious. Yes, you may not intend it to scar beneath the surface. But then, what does that speak of you? Maybe I am better off caring less. There is no limit on how much they are allowed to wade. Or whether are they even allowed to. Human nature I suppose. It is only natural to prod another human being. Even though it is just metaphorically. Because if they actually did so, prod, (I'll allow you to finish the sentence).

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I'm currently reading Grotesque by Natsuo Kirino.
Brrrr...

Welcome to Jap brains. Wanna pick on it?

Review:
"Suicide, paedophilia, incest and murder combine to form a story that will leave you questioning your own morality"

Though, yes, the story includes those mentioned above. This book vividly describes the mind of the characters. A bunch of disturbed characters. The narrator aka main character is never named.

"... They'll stop loving you. They won't be able to love you."

"My body is my own, why should anyone else think they owned it? Why should a person who loved me think he should be entitled to control my body? If love was that restricting, I was happy to live without it."

That sentence made me think; it is just like how I say 'my mind is my own'. Who are you to alter what I truly believe? Because of status-quo? The norms that we have to follow are so restricting. Yes. I shall be reasonable whilst executing my mind. That, I agree is a must. Otherwise...

Bite me.

23.12.07.

Back then these were my Happy Unexpected Moments, 23 December 2007:

Happy unexpected moments..
Sometimes you have these unexpected moments where you just have to go.. *grins*
*In no particular order*

- a random message on a random topic
- a message in the middle of the night asking for a donut date [I can't remember who]
- an unexpected post on my blog [Gets into my account & writes. I.E. is at the bottom of this post]
- a random lame joke that reminds me of Tun
- messy duck eating at 'the apartment'
- Jon and his usual clumsy-silliness
- the drawing of me [wonder where it is.. draw me a new one no?]
- the contradicting lines + half awake [I've no idea what I meant]
- hearing the most ridiculous 'jj & rudy' christmas elf gotcha call in the morning
- hearing an old tune on the radio [I do love my Civic]
- late night McD's [xxxxx Chand]
- the most 'dreamy' heels [My PRINCESS HEELS!]
- same table, different zones [backbenchers. damned. TBD u outta be back!]


Hid my old blog, rather not have it linked, so here!

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Linda Khoo- The Menace of Society whom GLOWS [16.01.08] >



Is she really glowing? I've heard of the term before but I'm not too sure how it looks like. The whole concept for me is something like this...

glowing = happy/ prettier than usual / she just bought a high end compact powder

By the way friends..I am Haikal. Linda's part time blogger. I am someone she met during her internship. And now, she is done with that phase. The office feels empty and I dont have someone to bitch about work with. Damn.

So..Where do i start? Oh the glowing part...Ladies, I say this with no offence-WE MEN ARE MADE TO BE BLIND AND CLUELESS. BOTTOMLINE. If both us males and females were to be complicated, we will all die alone. Comprende?

And again...its funny how Linda expresses her undying hatred for the male species, YET SHE GLOWS BECAUSE OF ONE. What do we call that? Say what?

But nevermind that...the good thing is she's happy. Good for her.

And so, again, Linda never fails to mention my misbehavior though she's done interning. Fascinating. I wonder how she does it. Seriously, she came online just now just to remind me of what a drag my day will be. Seriously...Linda is evil. But I had the upperhand because I hold hostage-her thumbdrives. Which inside contains God knows what. Im so curious.

Lunchhour

Usually, when she's around, we would have a hard time picking a place to have lunch. What I would do is tell her to pick a place to eat. Which she wont of course. But today...of all the time she could choose where to eat...some miracle occured-she gave me a few ideas where I could have lunch. Can you believe that? She is made to torture poor souls such as myself.

Nonetheless...I still have her thumbdrives.

Her Desk

And yesterday, I was walking past her used-to-be-desk, where she used to drool on while sleeping. (Yes she does that) People! the poor monitor still has her sticky notes on it. Not as much as it used to be...But still an eyesore for me. Then I thought...Is she really that much of a lazy bumm? But work was calling so I had to cut my thoughts short. I wonder how long the post-its will stay there till somebody takes it down. Linda also left her hard-thingy there. What a waste...

Wednesday

Last Wednesday, she showed up to work a little bit different than usual. She wore this one-piece thing, green in color. Iv never seen nobody look good in that much green, and she managed to pull it off. Not bad at all. But! I never mentioned anything to her until she asked 'hey you like my chunness?'. And so I answered honestly. APPARENTLY my answers seems too much for her. Now tell me, what is a guy supposed to say when giving a sincere compliment? Again this is why men are made simple and clueless.

Friday

Linda's last day. We fooled about a little bit since everyone wasnt around and we had nothing to do. Took a few pictures and bitch about work. Before we left, guess what...Linda cried. Ok I lied. But who knows...maybe she did sob in the car.



No matter what...This place does feel different. Hmmm.

Haikal out. Ill post the pics later. Some problem with the uploader.Lousy betullah!



iamherobear++

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Now what are my Happy Unexpected Moments?

La pasión.

Keep the passion for under sheets.

To love like you have never been hurt before.. it takes guts.
It will get you either or.
Happy-ville.
Or doomsday.

On to relationships, what is love?
According to a friend, everyone have their own perspective on what love is. True. To be honest with you, my opinion is that people mix care and love up. Caring and loving are two absolutely different feelings.

Care is a part of love.
Love is not a part of care.


Care can be defined.
Love can't.

Care is limited.
Love is infinite.


And love don't exist for some.

Ooo I have a DSLR.

Would all the wannabe photogs rot and disappear?

Puhlease.. you're ruining the art of photography.

"I'm a spoilt brat. I want a DSLR too. Ooo look.. I am suddenly interested in photography. Oh no, ACTUALLY I'd always been into it. *uses photoshop effects*"

Oh oh.. or that I have a DSLR JUST BECAUSE it takes 'nicer' pictures.

Seriously, do take a BB gun and shoot yourself.

Buzz off..

Go get fixed on something else.

I.E. LV Bags.

And one more thing. It's stupid to lecture random strangers about how Mandrin is awesome. And how the entire chinese race should speak Mandrin. Mandrin is.. *roll eyes* it is good to know. It's an advantage. But any other languages are too. I tried out Mandrin, it sucked on my tongue. So no. Mandrin's not for everyone. Buzz off you pro-mandrin people. Go back to your 'homeland' if you're so upset about how all chinese should speak Mandrin.

I stood and walked away.

I'm already at the other table. And I want to stay.

IOI.

Between HeroBear/Megatron/Haikal de la rocha and me.

"Omgawd. I'm in IOI mall. Hahaha. Some seafood restaurant."
"Having fun ke?"
"Erm. Its just food. I'm just amused cause I never thought I'll ever enter this mall."

"That for u is a lala mall dear. Hahahaha. You now is lala."
And he wouldn't retract the statement.

Chand's going to have a field day with that.
Now, I am going to find a way to trample Megatron.

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We practically made our own movie overnight.
Genre: Triller.

Mad. Psych. Intense.

I was literally shivering.
Now, how's that for a nail biting movie.

"Yes, you do that.
You evaluate our character and capabilities and choose of a career path that we can live with.
It may not be what we want.
But just that, we are able to live with it."

Opt out.

How can a person be so brokened?

It got to be something that brought it to the brink.

Strange strange world.

It took 21 years and a few months to realise this is it.

To sharpen the picture and see it for what it truly is.

Be meticulous.

To take a deep breath and admit.

That it is time to opt out.

Blurred lines.

Location: Studio Mudio.
Credits to: Azman Hizan.

Testing out Haikal's relatively new lens. We're the subjects. Since I'm such an awkward lone poser.
We managed to portray some amusing shots [More like HeroBear did].
The album is on Facebook.
Know what's Facebook, Haikal?
It's that thing you used to rant on.
Oh by the way, check out Haikal's uber uld skul shuss.
It looks so classic in the last picture.











Cool shots.
Now rattle up.

15 minutes.

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My definition of a photographer:

The ability to seize & capture 'The Moment'.

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Hi 2010, never thought I'll see you.

I gave life too much credit in 2009. In a way, I expected too much. Funny thing was, I gave up on it before it ended. As it turned out, 2009 couldn't have ended in a better way.

December, you rock.

1. A chat over WLM - 'Chand, why don't you come for Christmas?' = Indo in Malaysia.


2. A push of - 'Why don't you book tickets to see mom?' = unsupervised 2 weeks.


3. 4 seasons of Dexter. Ended with me jumping out of bed going "ARE YOU FRIGGIN' SERIOUS?!!!!"


4. Greeted Chand with whisky breath & stayed up till 7am pasting cards on our foreheads, ate peach soaked in coke & bacardi (which is yuck) and having Haikal & Chand poking me because I was blotched.


5. X'mas at Reagan's was.. lets just say we played sexually related truth or dare.


6. Watched Yuenny made a metre high tower out of dimsum baskets.


7. Cleared my 'backlogs'.


8. Sara & I won at Wii Bowling Bet. I got my car washed and vacuumed. Sara's yet to get hers done.


9. Saw how pathetic the Khoo's can get.


10. All of my close friends received one piece of generic information. For once.


11. Starwalker for 2 weeks.


12. My New Year's celebration finally did NOT include drama.


13. Got meself a 'beanbag'.


14. I did not foresee 31.12.09.


15. It fits.

01.01.10 begun with karaoke challenge + wasabe. Snoring. Dexter's last episode. Clearing up the house.
01.01.10 ended with lots of scolding.

What a way to begin 2010.
Time to get a job.

Hello world!

Blogdrive was taking away 'THE MOMENT' of complaint.

So here I am.

Wordpress.